Burn out... ?

3 weeks withoug writing... I know it's not very fair to you dear readers.
But lately, there were lots of things going on.

First of all, I had some more or less permanent visitors. Ludivine who just arrived in Sweden had no apartment and stayed with me until she found one.
Also, my very good friend Clementine came to visit me with her twin sister during a long week-end. We had a wonderful time, partly due to the awesome autumn weather.
And when they all left at the same time (Clementine, Camille and Ludivine), I was kinda happy to be a bit alone... even though I've been coming home quite late all the time and did not enjoy my apartment as much as I would have liked...

Right now, things calmed down in my personal life, like mostly I don't have anymore visits planned, and even though I love that people come to see me, it feels kinda good. Especially as winter is coming (we had the first snow yesterday) and I'm usually very tired at that time of the year.

Professionally it's quite the opposite actually. As I told you a few months ago, I was about the enter the budget process. It was a very intense period for me. I felt like I had to be everywhere at the same time, I was learning by doing which was very time and energy consuming. But I'm happy, first because I've learned A LOT, and also because I've been told by different people that they were impressed by the job I had done, especially when they knew it was my first budget. Which basically means that I've achieved my goal in this challenge. So I'm proud and happy about that.

The thing is that I though this would be over like at the end of september, beginning of october. But this is not really what happened... Because now my boss is involving me at a different level, which is much more global and it's requiring a lot of work again. This plus all the other tasks that I had abandoned during the budget, and on which I have to catch up... It's always interesting and I'm actually quite flattered that my boss is asking me, but sometimes too much is too much.

So I've been surviving this quite good... until the end of this week where I felt that I was about to collapse, both physically and mentally. At some point I guess body and mind are saying STOP, and this is what's happening to me right now. I even have some sleeping troubles actually. I'm so tired that I can't sleep...
I took a day off on Monday. So I'll see how I feel after this 3 day week-end.

I keep on going training quite often because I need to feel that I'm not ONLY working and because dancing makes me feel good in general. As I wrote in an older post, dancing is definitely the short-term solution to all my concerns. And on top of that, training is quite addictive anyway, tired or not tired...

Well, this is where I am now. Sorry for the people who only like to hear me saying that everything is fine and that I'm the happiest in the world. Actually, I'm like that 95% of the time and I don't like to complain. But in the remaining 5% of the time, I wanna be honest to both you and me.

But now, let's start the week-end with a very positive thing : "Nougat pillows" cereals for breakfast with a special thought to Julia ;)

Hugs to all !! <3